Why am I here
Was this your plan all along
To play with my mind
Maybe I’m wrong

I was always in your shadow
I still looked up to you
Then my vision of you was shattered
My world was torn in two

Dad never said he loved me
He only loved his other son
And now in my mind
The memories weigh a ton

The memories of blood
In my heart they are kept
I look solemnly back
On those nights that I wept

I wish that I had died that night
I would not have done this to you
This was my only goal in life
I wish that wasn’t true

Because of you I’ve lost everything
My family, and my friends
I lost them so I could be here
These feelings come and go like trends

As you lay here, slowly dying
I know that I will never know
Why you did all of these things
Or about the feelings you failed to show

You said you were the obstacle
I had to overcome
I guess that in the end
That battle was won

I know that maybe you didn’t have
The kind of love you needed
But I still couldn’t help but wonder why
So for the answer I begged and pleaded

The answer was surprising
But I could tell that it was true
As you fell into the darkness
You whispered “it could have been I loved you”